I never tought i would have more than 200 followers, i mean i dont reblog and i dont consider my blog insteresting at all.
Well thank you all people :) Ill try do my best,not like anyone cares…
And well anon or off you can ask anything anytime you want to.
-Go to the gym
-Use the abcoaster (yeah i got one,and i do think its gonna work if i combine it with my regular work out)
-Dont cheat on my diet
-Take notes in class
-Read my lectures
-Do something to post later (massive post once a month)
-Take my pills
-Try not to procrastinate
I’m depressed, I feel lonely, like nobody had my back. I feel I give more than I get. I’m tired of feeling this way.
I used to care about people,somehow i felt like if cared for them,they would care about me. That lead me to care too much, and to believe that some persons were my friends.
But in the end i felt even more depressed,lots of things happened to me lately,and most of my friends did not realize how bad i felt.
I became very dependent on my friends,like i dont get to imagine my self without them. I have always said that they are my family,but what if you feel like your own people just dont care about you?
I need to grow up, i need to get out of the closet, i need to learn to love myself,cause otherwise i will always be alone.
I need to learn how to live on my own.
So that is the reason why i close my self to the world.Its not like im cutting my friendships, but im just going to see what happens,if they realize im gone,cause i feel most of them left long ago.
I know that some of them DO care about me,but i really dont know about the rest.
So this is why im going to fully focus on my studies,my blog and myself.Yeah i know this might be stupid,selfish and a little bit selfdestructive but this what i need to do right now.
I hope in the end they will come back,i guess this is it.
I really got amazing friends.
Walking down the road in the middle of the night.
I just feel like crap, this fever is gonna kill me.
Just lots of me.
My icon picture, if anyone was wondering.
This happens when i get too bored.
apparently I look like the Green Goblin in this photo
I got really wasted on my last birthday, and i tend to hug and get to affectionate with people. This guy is like my big brother i just hug him like for 3 straight hours.